You receive a gift that is bittersweet and makes you nostalgic. What is it?
The most bittersweet gift I have received in quite some time was the message below. I have spent years holding my mom on a pedestal as the best mom in history that no one will ever compare to. I have always thought of myself as a little cold and emotionally defunct and because of that I never thought I would compare. So, when a woman I have known all of my life and had the glory of calling my aunt (she' not blood, she's better than that) sent me the message below it stopped me in my tracks. Is it possible that I could ever be half the mom that my mother was? Is it possible that I have learned from my mom how to be an even better parent than I ever thought I could be? Is it possible that I am actually living up to her expectations? Is it possible, that only now I see what everyone is talking about when they tell me how proud of me my mom was?????
I am quite spoiled by my family, especially my husband, but for some reason the fact that they went out of their way to make Mother's Day so perfect this year was special. As bad as I am at it I need calm, and my darling little clan went above and beyond to make my entire Mother's Day weekend calm and relaxing. This gave me time to think of all of the Mother's Days I had missed (or screwed up) with my mom. I always come back to the gift she always asked for but never got and it reminds me that quite often I get exactly what I ask for.
So here it is, the gift that showed me I am the mom everyone else always knew I could be. I must say in closing that I still don't quite see it.