Daily Prompt: Success!
Tell us about a time where everything you’d hoped would happen actually did.
Have you ever heard that you should be careful what you wish for? I had, but I never quite understood what it meant until it was too late. Being this close to Mother's Day my thoughts often drift to my mom, which is to be expected, but this year in particular has been enlightening.
I had always hoped that as the oldest child when it came time to make crucial decisions for my parents I would be strong enough to do so. My parents were divorced so that job was unfortunately inevitable. I never knew that time would come at age 28, but I had the unfortunate opportunity to take my duties on at a rather tender age. When my mom was diagnosed with cancer my only hope was that she wouldn't suffer. Given my employment at a cancer hospital I had seen far too many people suffer for far too long. This was the woman who had always taken care of and comforted me and I could not imagine her being in a situation where no one could offer her comfort. I also hoped for a speedy conclusion and at the time I refused to accept anything but positive outcomes. I remember the afternoon before she died crying on my dad's shoulder before he left to go home, telling him that I wished it would just end. The timeline between diagnosis and that day were shorter than anyone would ever hope for.
Needless to say I got everything I hoped for and learned quite quickly that I should be very careful what I wish for. I know now that there isn't a price too high for the opportunity to spend more time with her. I did what I was supposed to and I followed her instructions to the letter up to the moment we shut the oxygen off, and let her go. I was the daughter I always hoped I would be and the daughter my mom would have been proud to have raised. I had grown into a strong enough woman to make a decision that I never wanted to make. I remember telling my brother that she was supposed to live to be 100 and die in her sleep. I was proud of myself but I didn't know that at the time.
Now I look at my daughter who is turning out to be so much like me. I just hope that she never has to watch me suffer, and I hope she always has the strength to live by the lessons her Nana taught her 🙂