If you could read a book containing all that has happened and will ever happen in your life, would you? If you choose to read it, you must read it cover to cover.
Absolutely not!! I thought once when I was looking back on my mom's cancer that I would have liked to have known what was going to happen, but I let that thought go quickly. I am sorry that I didn't know it was my last summer, last Christmas, last anything with her. How would I have acted if I had known? I certainly wouldn't have acted the same and my memories wouldn't be the same and I have some damn good memories with my mom. I would have coddled her and cried and treated her life a fragile little old woman, which my mother was not..
I like to remind myself that there is a reason I'm not in control around here and therefore have no need to know what's about to happen. Maybe it's my kids, my husband or even my MS but whatever the reason I love the lack of predictability in my life and I wouldn't trade it for anything. Not to mention that the parts of my life where I lay in bed watching TV would make for a pretty boring book. How long can you read about someone watching cartoons and blooper shows before you fall asleep?? 🙂